Simple stuff about me includes,
-Im 22 years old
-I have a 2 year old son named Hayden
-My fiance, Zachary or Zakk, and I are planning our wedding for this coming June
-I am a Christian (source)
-I love to read, take photos, and scrap book
-I am a stay at home momma ( have been for over a year now)
-I am going to college to pursue a degree in crime scene photography
-& I live in a small town right between Rochester and Syracuse, New York
So there's the simple stuff that I think everyone knows about me.
Now onto the
-I am co-dependent
-I suffer from social anxiety, which I believe blogging is helping me with
-I am now struggling with my weight, a lot
Before I was pregnant (right) & the morning I was in labor (over 9 months)
I know you can't really tell I was horribly skinny but I have always loved this picture. I was a size 9 in this picture.
The reason I am so big is that my dr said because I was suppose to have twins I gained the weight for both so instead of gaining the normal 20 pounds I gained 52 pounds, which ironically is the same my mom gained for me & she had the same miscarriage problem.
I am terrified if we ever have a daughter that I will have to explain this to her because 9 times out of 10 this will also happen to her. I am also terrified that when Hayden gets old enough we feel it is only right to explain that he would of had a brother/sister that would be his twin.
-I miscarried Hayden's twin, the ER told me it was a full miscarriage and suggested a D&C. If I had followed their instructions, Hayden wouldn't be here.
-I have horrible mood swings
-I hold my feelings in, & in doing so when Zakk and I fight it is bad(I am working on this)
-I dropped out of my dream college because of a medical issue
-My closest friends I can count on all ten fingers
-I am very emotional, it was ten times worse when I was pregnant
-I have three families & I love them very much
-I rarely ever wear make-up
P.S. if anyone has any weight loss tips I would greatly appreciate to hear them. If you would like to talk privately please email me, email@example.com